Strength

Definition according to Renee Tarot:

Strength

– a state of being whereby one overcomes all situations in life, whether good or bad, with a state of conscious, and intrinsically ethical, neutrality.

When I was a little girl my mother was quite nurturing toward me and my siblings, but my father struggled to connect with his own heart, how he felt about himself and how to nurture children (namely a child like me).  He, and his father before him, had been beaten down by American society and its consequences on lower class families and the uneducated men that head them.

As a result, I felt he did NOT want me…..it was as simple as that.  Consequently, I did NOT like him and the dislike morphed into a few different feelings over my lifetime:

  1.  longing (ages 0-7)
  2. avoidance (ages 8-12)
  3. hatred (ages 13-21)
  4. pity (ages 21-32)
  5. forgiveness (ages 33-45)
  6. neutrality/duty (ages 46- present)

The final feeling is what I experience to this day and duty is based on the minimum of what I would want my children (or any other caretaker) to express toward me.  I thank Spirit for the life lesson, which made me strong and provided clarity.

Nature teaches us despite the depths and joys attainable in any relationship, all eventually end in the 3rd dimension. This leads one to think we should operate with a sense that all we can hold on to is what we are, and any more that we need is given on a ‘need to have’ basis from the Universal Life Force. Each person receives an abundance of ‘something’, but no one can enjoy their ‘something’ without a paradigm shift with regard to what they lack.

If one is unable to see clearly, (s)he cannot judge.

If one is given so much that (s)he can attain nothing for him or herself, (s)he lives in a state of mental weakness.  What one feels mentally eventually becomes physical.

If one is so hurt, (s)he cannot get past self pity, (s)he is unable to help others, thereby leading to selfishness.

I would venture to say ‘strength’ in 2019 is a rare commodity.  If you don’t have it, find a way to get it.

RT

 

P.S. Both my older and younger sisters had a completely different experience with my father, one that was more positive.  People deal with us based on how we react to them (even parents), therefore ‘strength’ requires that we see things from others’ perspectives and avoid tunnel-visioned mentality in our own matrices, hence the desperate need for neutrality.

March of the African Gods

1 african godsLast night I dreamt that the African Gods marched down the streets of America.  It was a majestic walk that included both male and female gods in their giant forms, with royal Afghan-like dogs on leashes.  One god, who seemed bigger and fiercer than the others, marched with a giant crocodile on a leash, and there was no doubt that he had complete control of the animal. Somehow I knew I was not to address Him.

afghanI spoke with Ogun and asked a favor of him, which he granted me. I knew it was Ogun and the favor concerned my dog, which had been injured in the dream.  I asked Ogun to rescue him, which He did, and then the giant God laid him gently on the beach to be healed by the ocean waters.

The Gods walked with other types of giant hounds on leashes, ones I’d never seen before, similar to Afghans, but with robotic-like faces from another world.  Royal hounds, which seemed to embody certain traits that the Gods themselves portrayed, and their ability to control the giant dogs, spoke to their fortitude and fierceness.

It was amazing to see.

RT

Dream Blog: Treasures in the Sand

It’s been a minute since I posted a dream, and this one was clear and eye-opening so here goes.

Astrological backdrop:  Sun, Neptune and Mercury Retro in Pisces.

Beautiful Gifts are Lost

A male family member of mine purchased beautiful shoes (size 5) for his wife and other presents for each of his 3 children.  Somehow, I was able to show the gifts to my mom and he moved from a training restaurant (where all trainees were to make entrees from the main menu) to a car, where he lost the gifts along the highway.  My impression was that it was from carelessness.

We were both distraught because the shoes he bought his wife were beautiful and unique.  Also, the toys for the kids were special, exquisite and from the heart.

The Gifts Are Recovered

Somehow we ended up at the beach with an African-American man who was a well-known spiritual worker.  We told him we’d lost the gifts and needed his help finding them, thinking he’d point us in the direction of where they were lost.  The man, my family member, other strangers and me were all kneeling in the sand.

The spiritual man began digging in the sand and to our surprise, one of the boxes was buried there.  He continued digging and all of the boxes were discovered.  One box for his youngest daughter was a bit smaller, but actually more appropriate than the original box he’d had her gift in.

We were filled with joy and discovered the gifts stayed with us, never too far away.

End Note:

His youngest daughter was in the backseat consoling her oldest sister who was afraid to learn how to drive because it meant she’d eventually have to leave her parents and become independent.  I mentioned to my family member that his young toddler daughter was actually an old soul that was thousands of years old.

I hope something in this dream helps you to be inspired and not to cry over what you’ve lost that was not ever lost at all!

 

Rev. Renee